My Dilemma (Opportunity?)

“Is this one your first?”

They all want to know,

All the curious admirers 

This question throw

"Yes, she is my first";

But no, she is not;

"I’ve also a boy...

But she’s all that I’ve got."

Oh what is most truthful??

My heart pleads inside

I want to explain, 

But as well want to hide.

I don’t want the blushes,

The awkward trite words

So should I just smile

And say, “yes it’s my first”?

It’s my first to be waking

Through nighttime to feed

But the second to have milk

And a baby to need.

It’s the first time to see

My child smiling at me

But oh, how I still miss

My son’s boyish glee.

She’s the first I hug daily

And kiss on the nose

But one day I did hug him, 

Kissed, and fingered his toes.

It’s the first I am cheering

At each development

But no, I’d cheered for his

Though I hadn’t seen him yet.

So what should I answer?

What’s most true to my heart?

The most truthful? least awkward?

Choosing which, is an art.

She’s the one for my arms now

The other, God has

Takes time to explain 

But I’m glad that you asked.

She’s the only one with me,

But it’s two I’ve been giv’n-

She’s the one you can see,

And my Boy - lives in Heav’n!

Written Nov 30, 2017

I am finding a way to answer that oft-asked question, a way that shows my anticipation for heaven and my love for Seth. It has opened up many good conversations with people. When you are willing to be vulnerable and aren’t awkward about it, other people know it’s OK to share their vulnerabilities as well. God is helping me turn this question that I don’t like a whole lot into an opportunity for meaningful connections with people I never would’ve connected with if it weren’t for my children. Thank You Lord.

What is a question you don't enjoy answering? Perhaps God would like to give you a way to answer that will turn it into an opportunity instead of a dreaded scenario.